In an out-of-body sort of way, I look at how I’m responding to this baby making stuff and it shocks me. I am the one who is cool under pressure. I am mostly in tune with my logical self and my own parents described as an Ice Princess… but here I am, having emotional break [...]
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Balloon. Needle. Pop.
I get an IM today that potentially changes everything. It went something like this:
HIM: Did you know that the free IVF is going to cost $5000??
ME: WHAAAT?!
HIM: Yea, that’s not exactly free…
ME: I knew we’d have to pay for some test, but I thought my tests were going to cost somewhere in the range of [...]
Ms. Potential….
Potential… such an optimistic word. So hopeful. So encouraging….. yet, so not guaranteed.
That first date, that job interview, the artistic abilities displayed… such potential….. but really, what really counts is the view in retrospect: did the relationship pan out past the 2nd date, did the job interview land the job, did the artistic abilities [...]
Infertility is a misogynistic disorder….
This “rant” is not based on anything but opinion, since I didn’t fact check one ounce of this brain spew…. it’s just an observation from a slightly bitter and very barren me.
Infertility is totally sexist. Yes, it affects couples, but really the majority of women I come across on the sites are the one’s being [...]
Not Pregnant
I do not consider myself infertile, which is ironic because I’m seemingly not able to get pregnant….
The Clomid did not work. I could feel the Clomid in my system, since I would wake up in the middle of the night feeling pretty damn nauseous. As for poppin’ the eggs out, I don’t know that it [...]
In between days….
I’m in the midst of another *two week wait. I’m getting damn good at these. The first month we were trying, I was a total hyper-hypo and “felt” alllll sorts of symptoms. Now-a-days I just sort of lose track where I am, until I get close to a test date day…. But this month, [...]
40 is the new 20, unless you’re a worry wart!
There has been many-a-recent day that I’ve felt like a 40 year old EMO, sans black garb and piercings. And many-a-recent day where bleakness has me cranking up the likes of Damien Rice and letting the tears flow….
( I know, I know… Rice is not EMO, but I said I was LIKE EMO, not EMO… which is [...]
Two Cents From a Buttinsky….
Perusing the various internet forums is a voyeuristic experience. Well, maybe not if you were at a site that was discussing electronics or gardening….. but baby making? GAH! Baby making sites have some serious boundary issues! You will hear all amounts of sorted details from a couples private life. During a recent visit, I couldn’t [...]
Snap-Crackle-POP!
If someone were to ask me if I were accident prone, I’d whole heatedly deny it. But then, if they persisted and asked a few more questions, there might be doubt cast on my denial.
Question : Have you ever been in any jarring event, something that snaps your neck or body??
Answer: Um, I’d like [...]
Perfectly Imperfect
This morning, before work, I drank a decaf latte’….. this afternoon, after work, I popped a Clomid. And this evening, on the drive home from my acupuncture appointment, I contemplated how I can let loose and let go and stop being so uptight…. my gawd, I am a woman who spell checks her drunk emails.
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